Day 125

It feels good to be back home. I spent most of yesterday in either a hotel business center or meetings at GFS. We took our client out for dinner at a great Restaurant in downtown Grand Rapids, Michigan called Leo's. If you ever in the area and are looking for a place to eat - go there. Excellent seafood. Anyways, the client we took out brought his wife. They were good people and drank a lot of wine. I was driving home 3 hours, so I left the drinking to my boss and to them. We started talking about death and they mentioned how a member of their church and a good friend committed suicide. Eric, my client, must have said four different times "he was close to the lord." I obviously let it go and kept my mouth shut. The meal was a three hours and my boss Tim and I headed home. Tim asked me on the way home how I felt about Eric mentioning the lord so many times. I told him that it didn't bother me and if that is what makes him feel better by "being close to the lord," than I was fine with it. I would never mention anything about it to him and I always keep my beliefs to myself in business situations. Tim talked about how he was curious about my beliefs because he is a Christian, he believes that Christ is his savior, and he is a deeply rooted family man. I went into my whole routine, listing the horrible things that have happened in my life since he met me and why it has led me to the conclusion that there is no god. His response was what I expected. He said "if you don't believe there is something bigger in this universe than you and I in this car, then that is crazy. How do you think everything was created?" I played right into my hands of "what kind of god allows 9-11 to happen? Or Hurricane Katrina, or your uncle getting Leukemia and dying at age 52? " "There are reasons god has for everything" he said.

I knew we had to move into another direction so we started talking about my father and how much I loved him. He opened up to me as well about his relationship with his father. It was a very candid conversation and I could tell this talk went a long way with him. Later he told me he would do everything to get me to Cleveland without changing anything. He respects me and the work I do for him. So I think we are going to be just fine with my work. My take on the whole thing is that he was caught off guard when I talked to him about moving on the way up Monday. He had a few days to digest it and I believe he felt better about it. So now we can start a plan. We look at houses online all the time and Leah will be in Cleveland this weekend for Jessica's Cleveland shower. So my mom is taking Leah to see some houses on Friday. I cannot tell you all how excited I am for all of this. I am ready to have a house. I am ready for suburban life.

Tomorrow I am going to discuss different subjects, I promise. Like how does anyone believe on a god that would allow Dana Reeve to die of lung cancer when she never smoked, leaving their 13 year old boy with no parents and how much I love this week of college basketball.

Song of the day: "Jesus Walks" by Kanye West