Day 25

I cannot believe we are into November finally. This has been the single longest year of my life. The last 12-13 months feels like it has been a decade. Talk about going the the emotional wringer. This month obviously has a ton of significance for me. To be honest, I can't wait for it to be over. This is just another one of those life events I need to get past. I needed to get past Father's Day, My Dad's birthday, My parents anniversary, Tribe Opening Day, The first home Browns game. All of this leads up to the anniversary of his death and his stone setting at the cemetery. I am resigned to the fact that Thanksgiving weekend will never be the same again. The drive home from Chicago to Cleveland has had an eerie feeling since that day because that is what I was doing when I found out dad had passed away. I'll be doing that same drive on the same day before thanksgiving in a few weeks. Lock me up for shedding some tears on that 5 plus hour drive. Its all good though. I am not afraid to cry. I have cried more in this past year than I have the previous 15 years combined.

I am not one for religion these days, as most of my readers already know, but after my dad passed away, I sat with the Rabbi and he said something that has always stuck with me - Everyone grieves in their own way and everyone has a right to grieve how they want to. My Grandmother is very much into praying and "talking to God" every single night before bed. While I may not agree with her, if it works for her, than that is all that matters. Part of my grieving is this blog, my personal journal that just I write in with my memories of my father, and doing a quick meditation when I do Yoga a few times a week. All of it, in addition to the love and support of my family and friends, especially Leah, keeps me on the level.

Song of the Day: "It Ain't Easy" by 2Pac.