Day 12

Weddings are always such occasions that are full of love and promise. This past weekend, I attended an old family friends wedding. During the ceremony, again the bitterness of loss hit me when the cantor who was performing the wedding was speaking of "God blessing this union" and "God bringing these two people together." I don't need to go into this again. Anyways, their was a lot of love in the room at the reception. Way too many long speeches for my taste, but it is what it is. The food was so slow in coming out as well - so slow that after a speech, I had to go back to my mom's house to let Casey out. By the time I drove there, took her out, and drove back, the salad's hadn't even been served and everyone had been sitting at the table the entire time. When people were up dancing and I looked out on the dance floor, I noticed that my mom wasn't in the room. I understood why. My mom and dad were such amazing dancers. They had an incredible swing dance routine that was second to none. Its just so hard going to these weddings for my mom, it just breaks my heart. I wish there was something I could do or some way I could deflect the pain for her to me. Leah was very emotional last night as well. I walked my mom out to her car right after dinner and we stayed about an hour longer. I never knew that I could be so down at a wedding, but as they say, it is what it is. On a lighter note, the highlight of the evening for me was watching my Aunt Linda and Uncle Kenny dance up a storm. They worked all of their "new moves" in with their old moves. Not since watching my parents do their swing routine at our wedding, did I enjoy watching people dance so much. To all of those who understand, "The White Bill Cosby" was in full effect last night.

I also wanted to give special mention to my good friend Dave, who had his father's stone setting today. I know today had to be unbelievably tough for him and I wish I could have been there with him. Although I didn't know his father very well, I know how special he was to their entire family and how hard the struggle was for them. Dave and I share a bond that not many people can relate to. He is an amazing friend to me when we have serious conversations about our fathers, or just when we are getting "all banged up."

Song of the Day: "Aint No Half Steppin" by Big Daddy Kane. An unbelievably smoothed out track from 1988. "Another Victory, they cant get with me, so pick a b.c. date, 'cause your history."